他的狗死了
                                                                               
                      我看著那些哀傷的文章
                                                                               
                      情緒跟著被挑動
                                                                               
                      就落下淚來
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                      人生有時候很殘忍
                                                                               
                      可是這是過程
                                                                               
                      我不是什麼會質疑世界質疑老天的哲學家或文人
                                                                               
                      習慣被動接受

                      但是偶爾也覺得這樣的殘酷不能忍受
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                      老媽昨日開了刀
                                                                               
                      不是什麼重大疾病
       
                      可是  無論是具有美感的病或是有爆笑感的病
                                                                               
                      都一樣是病
                                                                               
                      都同樣會讓一個平日堅強的人
                                                                               
                      忽然軟弱到失去所有力氣
                                                                               
                      變成小孩
                                                                               
                      於是此刻我也只能堅強

                      挑起那些平常都是媽媽在擔的責任
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                      打掃鎮日
                                                                               
                      平常除了打字書寫提東西以外
                                                                               
                      從不做任何勞動的手臂
                                                                               
                      因為過度的擦擦抹抹搬東搬西
                                                                               
                      產生了大量的乳酸
                                                                               
                      於是就連輕輕的敲打鍵盤
                                                                               
                      也覺得手臂痠不可耐
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                      嬸嬸跟叔叔來訪

                      切了柳丁
                                                                               
                      跟媽媽嬸嬸一起看舊日的相簿
                                                                               
                      說起每次都會說的話題
                                                                               
                      眾人畏懼  高高在上的阿公有多疼我
                                                                               
                      眾兄弟之首的爸爸有多愛我
                                                                               
                      我小時候有多調皮搗蛋...etc.
                                                                               
                      講也講不完的同樣話題
                                                                               
                      聽也聽不膩
                                                                               
                      因為阿公已經過世快十三年了
                                                                               
                      爸爸也走了八年多
                                                                               
                      靠著對這些記憶的聆聽

                      我才能重複又重複的建構那些我曾經經歷的幸福時光
                                                                               
                      不至於忘記
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                      是不太會悲傷了
                                                                               
                      然而仍覺得惆悵
                                                                               
                      為什麼忽然之間
                                                                               
                      這人間的一切就這樣消逝了
                                                                               
                      卻仍留下栩栩如生  讓人難忘的舊照片??
                                                                               
                      那被印下的一秒這一輩子都不可能再重現了
                                                                               
                      卻永遠會堆積在存放相簿的櫃子裡
                                                                               
                      等待我下一次的回顧

                      以及悵惘
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